Verbal Diarrhea

When I was 18, I always had this dream that by 30 I'll be rich and fabulous. I will not need a man to support me financially but more of an accessory(eye candy). I'll have the most fabulous party ever at the hottest club in town with all my closest friends.

But alas.....

30 is coming in a couple of days and I am not rich but I am absolutely fabulous (in my own fantasy lar). I no longer have the urge to club or drink. I can't believe that I'm gonna say this but clubs give me headache and it's a waste of money. If I have to drink, I prefer to pay for duty free alcohol coz it's cheaper and there's plenty to drink without feeling the pinch in the wallet. (am i even using this correctly? but then again who cares?)

The important things in my life now :

1. I have a place to live
2. I still have a job. Gonna be jobless soon :)
3. I have good & level headed friends to keep me sane
4. I have a husband who sometimes loves me for who I am & hates me every other day :)
5. My family members are mostly supportive of the things that I do
6. Facebook is not banned in Malaysia
7. Indy is old. If he has to go, I hope that he don't have to suffer and go peacefully. If given a choice, I want him to live forever.
8. Contemplating whether to buy a dog as companion or not
9. Wants something from Burberry, Gucci & Hermes badly
10. World peace

I've been suffering from sleepless nights for the past couple of nights leading up to my big day. Is it pure anxiety or is age catching up with me? Old people needs less sleep. And I feel like an old cow.

Nonsense Paranoia

#1 taking sleeping pills on a flight. what if there was an emergency and you can't wake up from it. you die!
#2 taking a dump in public toilets. your butt crack is exposed to all kinds of germs. you  might not die but your  butt might be infected by bacteria of all nature. you seriously dun wanna go there
#3 talking on your cell phone during a thunderstorm. you might not die but your ears might be fried!
#4 walking while texting. you might fall into a longkang and seriously hurt yourself
#5 driving on wet roads, brakes might jam & you might crashed into the car in front of you.
#6 drink too much water & it might get into your lungs and you might collapse & die.
#7 cutting veg at home alone. accidentally cut yourself, faint and bleed to death.
#8 ate too much fast food coz ur lazy and it might clog up your arteries and die.

Dreams do come true

It is not too old to realise our dreams. Why have regrets in life? You only live once, so why not live life to the max? Do things that makes you happy eventhough they whole world thinks that you're a dumb ass. Who are they to tell you what you should and shouldn't do? Why make yourself miserable all the time.

Someone once told me that anything can happen with positive thinking. The mind is a powerful tool if you dare to use it. Or remembers that you actually have one. She told me that her mom was battling brain tumour at the age of 70 plus. She had it remove and with a positive mindset, she is now a chirpy old bird. Happy with her life and her grandchildren.

If you keep telling yourself that you can't do this and that I betcha you will not be able to do anything with your life. It will be stagnant and you will forever be the loser that you are.

The epitome of positive thinking and realising your dreams comes in the form of a good friend of mine. Ms CAV believes in herself and do what she loves most. She told me once that she kept telling herself that she will see a rare sea creature ( i forgot the name of it coz i'm truly bad with it) on a diving trip and she did! No regrets and she went home happy. Apparently, it is one of the season diver's must-see sea creature and they've dived for many years and have never glimpse on one before. So I am truly happy for her.

Stay positive and good things will come your way.

Road runners

I'm proud to say that I am an ethical driver. I do not drive too slow or too fast. I always let people pass through if they want to. And when my mood says, "YES". Anyway, I've noticed a few times of drivers on the road in Malaysia and sometimes you just want to slap them.

Mother with children
They tend to drive big ass car and do not know how to manoeuvre the damn thing. They tend to cut in front of other vehicles just coz they are with child. They also like to double park and take their own sweet time to get into their car if someone honk them for attention to move their vehicle away.

Young man with spectacles
Their driving skills are as horrible as their looks. No offense to guys with spectacles but this is what I've noticed. They tend not to know how to drive. They either drive too slow or too fast and dangerously. Is it caused by their glasses? Is it in the way?

Modified local car drivers
Yes, I know you don't like the original general car specifications and you spent a lot of money modifying it. But have some manners when you're driving your lean mean machine. They go really close to other cars and just cut in front. WTF is wrong with you people? Not everyone in this world are car racer ok? Some are cautious drivers. You want to die, other people don't ok?

Overly cautious drivers
Some of them are so damn careful and drive so slowly they causes accidents to other vehicles. The road sign says 80km/hr not 30km/hr so drive as per the road sign. And there are a lot of cars behind you that are using the road too.


Bitches that don't let you pass
Some woman drivers are really shit heads. I really don't know what's going through their mind. When there is a traffic jam it's caused by them. You need to let other people pass through you coz if not, the jam will be worst. The thing is this let 1 car from each lane go once that way the traffic will be smoother and everyone can go home happily. By not letting other cars pass through doesn't mean that you will get home any earlier than them ok? Comprende?